Gratitude

As it has been exactly one week since my first blog (post? upload? unsure of the nomenclature. Let’s just go with “post” for now), and I plan to post once a week, it is now time to do just this. Originally I was going to keep it strictly centred around music and any insights I gain throughout a week of practice and reflection, but due to certain events happening around the globe I thought it would be prudent to at the very least be thankful for what you have, where you are, who you are with. At least for me. That’s something I’ll give religion, the emphasis on gratitude (not all of them, just some).

As a man born into a loving, supportive family in a first world country, it’s difficult not to take certain things for granted like having a house, pool, money, high standard of education, being able to pursue a career I’m passionate about. When I see what is happening around the world today, Afghanistan specifically, it shocks me. I cannot fathom a society or belief that does not value education and self autonomy

I am grateful.

In uncertain times like these, I have come to realise that it is important to acknowledge where you are in life, not necessarily what you have achieved (because let’s be honest, motivating yourself during lockdown is bloody hard!), but what you still have.

On a more positive note, I had a great practice session yesterday. Moving through the passaggio (singer term. kinda like a metaphorical bridge, gate, or door, the point between your chest and head voice… its complicated to explain without demonstrating) came really easily. I need to work on my vocal stamina, as I tire far too quickly when I’m up in my head voice for too long. Still having trouble with high Gs and F#s which is giving me the shits! I know it’s close if not right on my passaggio but I still find it frustrating. Using “Ständchen” by Schubert as a study piece is actually perfect for practising this. If I can sing this Lied all the way through softly, then I should be able to sing it at greater volumes. I’ll get there, I just need time. The one thing I’ll be grateful to covid for. I can practice all day if I want to.

That’s it from me this week. Stay strong everyone, you never know what lies around the corner for us.

I am what I am becoming.

P.S. I should really get my violin out for a practice. It’s been far too long since I last heard her sing.

Introductions

Welcome, those who have decided to visit my blog. Let’s cut to the chase. The idea for creating a blog came about during a moment in my life when I was feeling particularly down. I was down about my living situation (thanks COVID), career prospects in my chosen field, my vocal development, and the state of the world as a whole. I have chosen to place some of my thoughts, ideas, revelations, and dreams on here, as well as a few vocal demonstrations (if I like them enough to share) with the hope that it will further inspire me. To fill me with the passion required for a performer in the arts to excel, to succeed. Also to make myself a little more visible on media, which has always made me feel a little slimy, figuratively.

Normally, I lose interest, or start to lose interest, in a project after a few days. Imagine my surprise and, dare I say it, pride, when I finally finished. I’m smiling as I write this! It’s been a while since I’ve felt genuine pride in something I’ve done. A sense of accomplishment I can’t quite describe…

Regardless, this is me. Here is the reason for this blog, and its purpose. My method of conveying my thoughts and feelings to the outside world without being scrutinised by it.

P.S. please excuse the writing style. My mind is a little like a rocket ship bouncing around a room. Tangents should be expected.